"I didn’t have any definition of self. I never fit in, so I started pretending I was other people. I’d find people I thought were cool and dress how they dressed, talk how they talked, do whatever they were into."
It’s been five months, but the cast and crew of “Glee” are still mourning the death of star Cory Monteith, “one of the best people I ever met,” said series creator/writer/producer Brad Falchuk.
“From the beginning of the show, the relationship between Cory’s character and Rachel (Lea Michele) was the core of it,” the Newton homey told the Track. “He was also truly one of my favorite people. The kindness, the generosity, that’s who he was. When we were on tour, he was always the first one to run out into the crowd and sign autographs. He kept everyone together and happy. I loved writing for him. I miss writing for him. I miss him as a person. … It’s hard to be at work sometimes.”
Falchuk said it’s been especially difficult to do this season of the show, knowing what might have been had Monteith not died of a toxic mix of heroin and booze in a Vancouver hotel room last summer.
“We were heading towards something special with his character this season,” he said. “We were really excited about it.”
Falchuk said the cast and crew knew Monteith was “fighting some demons.”
“But I honestly believe this was an accident, and had it not happened, I think he would have worked it out. I think he was on his way to a better place, but it was a dark road to get there.”